The Insomnia is Real
True Life: I'm a pregnant insomniac.
Oh my gosh, it's bad. SO bad.
I've never experienced an inability to sleep before and I think it's the worst thing this pregnancy has brought me so far. I seriously feel awful for anyone who wants to sleep but just can't. Ah! It's not fair! On the nights I can fall asleep, I wake up - like clockwork - around 3 AM to use the bathroom. Then, every time, when I crawl back into bed, I'm absolutely desperate to fall asleep but just can't. Or, on the flipside...sometimes when I get into bed, falling asleep at all isn't even an option. I just lay there for hours and hours, angry, upset, and only wanting one thing: the sleep that's eluding me. And if there's any noise? Forget it. I can't sleep through a fly buzzing around the room...let alone our ceiling fan that randomly clicks in the middle of the night. I can't count how many times I've stood on our bed at 3 in the morning - pitch black - and hit that fan until it stopped clicking, just for it to click again once I laid back down! Gah! Problem is: I can't sleep without a fan circulating the air because I get too hot...go figure. Finally though, and thankfully, we remembered our box fan in storage and Adam rescued it for me. He jimmy rigged it with duct tape so it would point down at me, and last night, I was able to sleep without being woken up by a clicking fan or my after-potty insomnia! Hallelujah! Oh please, can I have just one more night like last?!
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