The Recent Needs
A lump in my stomach crept into my throat when I saw this vase of flowers sitting on the front steps of my Mommy's house. Our first "sympathy" flowers - or whatever you want to call them - were delivered to a chilly porch on a bitter November afternoon yesterday. Nobody was home to bring them inside, so Adam and I drove up to the house to retrieve the lonely and beautiful flowers. I cried when I saw them. A small glimpse of my new reality peeked out from behind the blossoming lilies. I wasn't ready for that. I'm still not ready. Instead, I've fully immersed myself in memorial planning. It's keeping me unbelievably busy. But I don't mind. It's what I need right now.
I also need views like these. Autumns in Spokane are just wonderful. I love the bright array of golden colors. We don't get this type of view in Florida. Mostly because there are no hills. Mostly because palm trees dominate. And those don't change colors.
And finally, I've just been needing some good ol' fashioned fun. Well, at least to watch other people have fun. In the last 2 days, I've developed some sort of dizzying cold. It's lame. And while the room was spinning before my eyes, Adam and Shelby were climbing tall rock walls. I think that's a fair trade, right? Right...The two of them enjoyed spending a bit of time together, which made my soul happy. I've missed my sweet Shelby and while I don't like the reason I'm back, I do like the extra time I get with my family. Adam too. And since Shelby took him climbing last night, he's been talking about taking it up as a hobby. Apparently, if you learn to climb super high walls, you'll start "throwing cheddar." Well, please Adam, start climbing then ;)
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