Day Four Hundred

The Book

This is the most accurate description of our lives this past year. We are absolutely exhausted. I swear, my husband's turning narcoleptic and I can't seem to formulate any more clear thoughts. I've begun saying things that make little to no sense and drag around 5 pound weights on each of my eyelids. Emotionally, physically, spiritually, and mentally, we're both just done. Spent. Drained. Tired.

In the matter of only 4 days - between coffee with Rhyan, meeting with John, and dinner with the Martins - there's been a radical change in my heart. I have secrets I'm sick of hiding. Struggles I'm tired of battling. Answered prayers I've yet to acknowledge. And a redeeming story worth telling. I've thought a lot about the potential of writing some sort of something, but never anything more than that. Well, besides this blog. After this week, I think I'm ready to begin a new journey. One that involves a lot of reflection, reading, writing, praying, and changing. 

I'm going to write a book.

A published book.

Where it'll start and where it'll end, I couldn't even begin to say. I just don't know yet. But what I do know is that I have a passion for writing, a passion for the life I live, and a passion for The Savior who made it all possible. So, I'm going to start writing. Like, coffee-shop-day-job type writing.

In order to begin this hugely daunting and terrifying task, I need to make some changes. For myself, for Adam, and for my marriage. Because of Adam's career, our days are just different. Our typical dinner is made at 11 PM and we have trouble getting to bed before 3 AM. Much of the time, I stay up writing my blog while he passes out next to me on the couch waiting for me to finish. It's not romantic in the slightest. And it's not healthy for our marriage. Especially because most of the time I'm half asleep and crying while I write it. Nights get too late and I get too tired.

So, I'm changing it up. 

Tonight's post isn't about what happened today. Tomorrow's post will be. And Day FOUR HUNDRED (!!) seemed like a good day to make the switch. (Thanks for the push Josh and Amy). So, instead of writing about today, I'm going to start writing about yesterday. That way, Adam and I can get to sleep at a decent hour, and my brain will be at full capacity the next morning.

Also, I'm going to try Wordless Wednesdays. I'll post a photo, but no words. I want to continue this 365 project that I enjoy so much, but in order to do so AND begin my new journey, I have to make some compromises.

That's what I've got for now. I'd really enjoy and appreciate your thoughts. Any and all of them. Finally, Josh gave me a really neat idea and I'd like to try it:

Out of all the days this year, which one(s) has been your favorite?

My email is: kconley72@live.com 

Thank you. 

If our days continue the way they are now, this image wouldn't be too far ahead of us. And that, my friends, is just not something I want Adam to post of me as Picture of the Day.